New Leaf

I feel like I need to talk about whats going on in my life whether its what people want to read or not, I'm doing this for me because I feel its important that I save this for myself.

OK

I've never been one of those people that get inspired by the

New Years Resolutions people try at the beginning of every year.

I've never done them.

Probably never will.

I've always looked at it like this;

That if something needs to change I'll change it when it feels right to me and when I'm willing to do something not by setting a date or waiting for the new year to roll around to do something about it.

like it or no that's how I feel.

Now that we have that Straight, I wanted to say that Joel and I have had many life changing talks recently & we have decided to turn over a new leaf with our relationship, our finances with everything in our lives.

WE are vowing to be more,

Healthy, kind, loving, responsible, honest, reliable, more spiritual people.

Starting with:

-Better church attendance

yes, I myself have struggled with that, not recently but I have in the past year and it does not help Joel to be better when I am doing it.

I love my new calling in primary and it has definitely helped me so much,

but I know I need to work on the desire to go more.

-Budget

Yes Joel and I have struggled to keep afloat many times this last year.

My part being, #1. I get depressed and like to shop or eat out.

# 2. I don't always have sense to wait on buying things.

# 3. I don't like to cook very much.

I'm working on it.

srsly.

-Speaking kind words

Yes for my part, I have a problem with saying whatever comes to my mind when I'm frustrated and I end up putting my foot in my mouth and have much much grief for it later, as I should.

Yes its immature.

& yes I know that,

A little kindness goes a long way.

As my Mom always says.

&

I just want to say I'm sorry to anyone I've ever done this to sometimes I can be such a drama queen. :(

-Be more prayerful in my decision making.

That a big one for me.

Too often I just go along with whatever someone else wants for me and my family.

Whether it be my husband, parents bro & sisters, my in laws, whatever.

I know there's no limit to how many times you can pray so why don't I always consult with him?

Especially with the big stuff?

This was is my short list of things we are working on as a family

and my own personal struggles I am working on.

I don't say any of these things, to offend anyone or get attention.

That's the last thing I want.

To me its important to write it down and my blog has helped me save my memories and help to get some venting out. Sorry.