oops

My sony snapshot is broken so I've been lacking in the picture department. Sry.
All I have right now is film which I love, but I am too lazy to develop it. So here's me saying that I will try and get all the wonderful pictures up here this weekend of Adee and my house and what I've been up to!


♥
Autumn

What touches your heart?

Well... besides my Baby Adelynn and Joel my Favorite read in the whole world.

The book is by Mitch Albom
titled: The five people you meet in Heaven


Let me tell you why I love this book...

I love this book because it talks about how everyone in this world is connected even if we don't realize it. I love what this particular paragraph says about life and death, it really makes you think.

"Do you ever wonder why people gather when others die?
Why do people feel they should? Its because the human spirit knows, deep down, that all lives intersect. That death doesn't just take someone, it misses someone else, and in the small distance between being taken and being missed, lives are changed."

I had never thought about it that way... to me it makes sense.
Birth, death, life, All have a connection it has a
balance.

It goes on in the chapter to an example of "Eddie" the main character. Eddie is brought face to face with a man in heaven that he barely remembers from his childhood and is not sure why,
that now in the after life he must meet with him.

As he speaks with the man Eddie is brought to a remembrance of a what seemed like a small instance to him in his life but was life changing to this man before him.
In this memory eddie was a child throwing a baseball with some friends, but as it so happened on this day, in this memory, he threw it too far and it landed in the street and Eddie being a child, ran after it into on coming traffic & was barely missed by a driver.

Eddie at that exact moment whether he knew it or not had changed another mans life.

Eddie walked away from that, back to his friends with the baseball that he had so carelessly retrieved.
Never understanding or noticing what had happened.

But what had happened to the driver?


What Eddie never noticed was this, that the driver had swerved and missed Eddie and being an old man like he was he had a heart attack from the adrenaline rush of the incident.

He died minutes later.

Eddie then realizes after hearing the mans side of what happned that day, that the person speaking before him is that

old man.
& he must reconcile.



Is it fair what happened?

I love what the old man goes on to say about fairness in life.


"Fairness does not govern life and death. If it did, no good person would ever die young."

As the story progresses the man that Eddie had affected,

forgave him quickly.

And then went on to reminded him that no man is an island.
We all touch one another lives everyday even in small ways.

Nobody is truly alone.

I love that story. As sad as it is, it reminds me that we all have a place and purpose & nothing is exactly random.

& I always feel after reading this book, that I need to look outside myself more and know that what I do affects others for good or for bad. I need to be better. Speak more kind words.


What has touched your heart lately?

Anyone else

Have a Ford Escape or a Ford that keeps stalling when the car is idling?

Our car keeps having problems when is idling
it sounds like its choking and then dies if we don't give it gas.
I think it could be a vacuum valve broken again, but I wanted to ask around to see if anyone else has had this issue.

Thanks!

looking back

This was me

I just want to get to a place where I felt great like in this picture.

This was just after I got married

and I was very fit.

I just want to get back to the days where my face was not

puffy and fat.

I don't care so much about getting into my old size four skirts and pants,

I care more about slimming down

&

being healthy.

I don't believe in going on crazy diets where you cut out all the things you enjoy eating,

& drink like green tea for like two weeks straight

or no carbs

or only veggies.

That never worked for me the past

&

I know

It would not work now.

Instead I would like to focus more on just healthy living.

Changing your lifestyle.

You can have those desserts once in a while and breads but

focuing more on eating fruits and veggies,

less sodium and fats.

&
smaller meals

A great quote that hit me hard today... I'm going to try to live by this. Thanks Val!

"We repeat what we have said before: make a habit of going to the house of the Lord.. There is no better way to ensure proper living than temple attendance. It will crowd out the evils of pornography, substance abuse, and spiritual atrophy. It will strengthen marriage and family relations." (From the Ensign Magazine, May 2005, "Closing Remarks" page, 102)

Our trip to Mesa for Christmas

We were supposed to be flying in to Mesa on Christmas Eve day.

Something I've never done before and will be glad to never do again.

ugh.

Our flight was delayed for like 4 hours!

We were supposed to be in AZ around 5 pm ended up getting to my parents house (with the car ride) around 9:00 pm.

Good thing Aligent air is so cheep!

total lameness.

I just remember how I was dying by the time we got to Mesa I had not had anything to eat for hours and I was really looking forward to the Mex food that was promised.

Yum.

aint no mex food like AZ mex food.

But dang here we were in a flipping airport...

Waiting.

Waiting.

Waiting

I had such a heavy heart from walking around w/ adee trying to keep her happy. How long would this take?

Now their saying Mechanical difficulties?

Possibly a new plane will be flying in for us?

I can't miss out on A Christmas Carol or the Nativity re-enactment!

I was feeling "So poopy" as Joel would say.

I was feeling sorry for myself,

For us.

But Then I remembered that I would get to see my sweet little one year old Nephew Brady and Sarah and Austin and Hallie and Ian.

And they would be seeing our precious little Adee

for the first time too...

I couldn't help but crack a smile at that point.

I started to get excited again...

I guess...

Christmas Eve wasn't going to be a total disaster If I didn't get to eat with everyone or watch the movie and eat sweets or have a re-enactment.

Christmas is about spending time with your families and Remembering our lord.

And even though we had a long day and we missed out on somethings I was just so glad to be home again.

Our Christmas was Awesome/lovely/special.

I'll never forget it.

Thx mom and Dad. <3

New Leaf

I feel like I need to talk about whats going on in my life whether its what people want to read or not, I'm doing this for me because I feel its important that I save this for myself.

OK

I've never been one of those people that get inspired by the

New Years Resolutions people try at the beginning of every year.

I've never done them.

Probably never will.

I've always looked at it like this;

That if something needs to change I'll change it when it feels right to me and when I'm willing to do something not by setting a date or waiting for the new year to roll around to do something about it.

like it or no that's how I feel.

Now that we have that Straight, I wanted to say that Joel and I have had many life changing talks recently & we have decided to turn over a new leaf with our relationship, our finances with everything in our lives.

WE are vowing to be more,

Healthy, kind, loving, responsible, honest, reliable, more spiritual people.

Starting with:

-Better church attendance

yes, I myself have struggled with that, not recently but I have in the past year and it does not help Joel to be better when I am doing it.

I love my new calling in primary and it has definitely helped me so much,

but I know I need to work on the desire to go more.

-Budget

Yes Joel and I have struggled to keep afloat many times this last year.

My part being, #1. I get depressed and like to shop or eat out.

# 2. I don't always have sense to wait on buying things.

# 3. I don't like to cook very much.

I'm working on it.

srsly.

-Speaking kind words

Yes for my part, I have a problem with saying whatever comes to my mind when I'm frustrated and I end up putting my foot in my mouth and have much much grief for it later, as I should.

Yes its immature.

& yes I know that,

A little kindness goes a long way.

As my Mom always says.

&

I just want to say I'm sorry to anyone I've ever done this to sometimes I can be such a drama queen. :(

-Be more prayerful in my decision making.

That a big one for me.

Too often I just go along with whatever someone else wants for me and my family.

Whether it be my husband, parents bro & sisters, my in laws, whatever.

I know there's no limit to how many times you can pray so why don't I always consult with him?

Especially with the big stuff?

This was is my short list of things we are working on as a family

and my own personal struggles I am working on.

I don't say any of these things, to offend anyone or get attention.

That's the last thing I want.

To me its important to write it down and my blog has helped me save my memories and help to get some venting out. Sorry.